I cannot stand the thought of you coming out no better than when you went in. That you would return to living the way you were, making the same decisions, and pursuing the same friends. You CANNOT truly change on your own. You need a real relationship with the Lord. You need His anointing on your life and you need to seek Him and His will for you. I pray for true conviction and repentance in your life. That you will turn from your wicked ways and pursue righteousness. The enemy is at war for your soul.
Parents, never give up on your kids. I believe with all of my heart that everything my son has gone through will not be in vain. That the Lord will use him in the lives of others. He will be a light in this dark world, that he will be a vessel the Lord uses to draw others to Him. Those that are a lot like my son. Those that have chosen the hard road, time and time again.